Here I Am

Here I am, sitting in front of the laptop, blogging, facebook-ing, plurking, msn-ing.


Here I am, in my room, day dreaming about working in my own office, earning hard cash and looking through reports.


Here I am, in Belfast, waiting for my Visa to be approved, so that I could continue staying here for another 2 years.


Here I am, in the UK, savouring the sunny weather and cold temperature, thinking of my next trip to another Europe country.


Here I am, far away from Malaysia, missing my family and the food and my friends.


Here I am, in the midst of sadness and happiness, I just can't simply make up my mind whether to become a optimist or a pessimist.


Here I am in the body of a 55kg gal (gosh..that's super huge for my height -_-... need to keep fit gal), thinking maybe I have dense bones and not 40kg of accumulated fat -_-


Here I am, pigging out smarties, wondering whether my weight would soar to 58kg by the end of this month.


Here I am, watching Sailormoon -_-, silently laughing at my naive-tivity when I was young and now.


Here I am, looking at a glass of water, thinking that if only my thought could be as calm as it, no ripples, no waves, no tilting or whatsoever, then maybe I could be happier.


Here I am, searching for a way, into all my friends heart, wondering whether they had forgotten me or not.


Here I am, babbling nonsense, but yet, felt a great sense of relieve when writing...


Here I am, prepared to take on the worst if my Visa approval failed...


Here I am, in my comfort zone, unwilling to charge out, but yet, my heart is longing to break out.


Here I am, a coward, afraid to call home, scared to spill the not-so-good news of mine to my parents, but then again, I miss my parents...


Here I am, trying to be a better person, did I succeed?? Ummmm.... T_T